its late and i cant sleep again. i wish you were here with me right now. i wish you were lying right next to me so my bed wouldnt be so cold. i wish i could put my arms around u so my heart wouldnt be so cold. my whloe life is collapsing right here infront of me and i cant help but laugh. all because of you. its not your fault, stuff like this just happens. i wont give up. im not that kind of guy, not for you. if it was any other i would have quit a month 1/2 ago wen things got compicated the 1st time. all these obsticals are doing is making us stronger. all they are doing is proving to you that i really do love you, because with just a few words i could be gone forever, but ill never say those words. ill never quit. ill always love you. in a year from now well look back on this and laugh about it, and 4 or 5 months later ill propose to you, and a year after that well be in australia checking out the great berier reef, or living in new yor like you've always wanted, or in venice, italy, like we always use to talk about. where ever we'll be, we'll be happy and my dad will be ed off that i didn't join the navy like he wants me to do (i don't know why). do you know the best part? its all gonna happen soon. i promise. i love you.

-this is to you, noelle. so if ur not noelle, don't get excited cuz its not 4 u