i use to think love was stupid, that it was only for people who found the only girl they could get, or that it was for people who gave up their dreams because they couldn't make them come true...and then i met a girl that made me feel good, and i thought i loved her, but she chose her own path and i couldn't go in the same direction she went, and we broke apart. my thoughts changed. i thought love was a wish that could never come true, that it only gave false hope that there was someone out there that you could love and never have to leave, but then i met you. you made me realize that love is more than just an idea. i love you Noelle, and I'll never give up what we have. i can't explain the way i feel when I'm with you, or even when i think about you. you're everything i ever wanted in a girl, and more importantly, you love me too. you are the only girl I'll ever want to be with. you are the girl i want to wake up next to and kiss good morning every day, and kiss good night every night. i want to spend every second of the rest of my life with you. i love you. i love you more than i can even imagine. i cant live without you. i cant think about anyone but you, even when i try. i love you so much.

this post is for Noelle Watkins, the girl that has my heart. i love you baby

i miss u. my mom says i might be able to call u today so im being extra nice 2day. i cant wait. by the time u read this hopefully ill have already called u. i love you so much. u know ur the only girl i care about (outside of my family of cors). we'll get thru this. i promis. i love you

baby, u know u mean the world to me, and that i wldnt trade u for any other girl on the planet. i love u so much and nothing cld ever make me love u less. i love u as much as i did a month ago, 2 months ago, even three months ago (be4 u knew i loved u and i thot i did but wuznt shr). u r my future and i wldnt want 2 change ne of it. i love u

its late and i cant sleep again. i wish you were here with me right now. i wish you were lying right next to me so my bed wouldnt be so cold. i wish i could put my arms around u so my heart wouldnt be so cold. my whloe life is collapsing right here infront of me and i cant help but laugh. all because of you. its not your fault, stuff like this just happens. i wont give up. im not that kind of guy, not for you. if it was any other i would have quit a month 1/2 ago wen things got compicated the 1st time. all these obsticals are doing is making us stronger. all they are doing is proving to you that i really do love you, because with just a few words i could be gone forever, but ill never say those words. ill never quit. ill always love you. in a year from now well look back on this and laugh about it, and 4 or 5 months later ill propose to you, and a year after that well be in australia checking out the great berier reef, or living in new yor like you've always wanted, or in venice, italy, like we always use to talk about. where ever we'll be, we'll be happy and my dad will be ed off that i didn't join the navy like he wants me to do (i don't know why). do you know the best part? its all gonna happen soon. i promise. i love you.

-this is to you, noelle. so if ur not noelle, don't get excited cuz its not 4 u

These guys are awsome. This is Black My Heart. They're a hardcore band from Boston, MA. They're crazy. If you're interested you can check them out at http://www.purevolume.com/blackmyheart.

I know I can't rock the costume as well, and I'm not as buff or strong, but when it comes down to it, this is what I hope you see when you look at me. I want to be your Superman babe

Damn. Today was pretty much the most f*d up day of the year. At this point I'm going to censor everything I write because my school is so gay that they would suspend me if I so much as cuss on this stupid f*ing blog. I f*ing hate my school. It's full of narks who don't know the first thing about loyalty. I swear to God. Most of the students would suck a teacher's dick just to get that extra f*ing brownie point. Honestly, I feel like a f*ing b*tch rite now. I'm so pissed off but instead of putting a hole in the wall or picking a fight with my step dad or something, I'm b*tching about it on this stupid f*ing blog. How gay is that? I feel like a f*ing homo rite now. So here's what happened: This morning me and my girlfriend (I love you so much baby) are sitting in my gay f*ing history class before it started and we didn't think anyone was looking, so we snuck a few kisses in because as soon as that moment ended we probably wouldn't get another chance like that for a while, and the people in the front of the class were looking at the stupid f*ing whiteboard, cuz they were doing some stupid math sh*t, and even if they did see it they were all my friends so none of them would say anything, right? Yeah f*ing right! I'm such a f*ing dumb sh*t! Why the f*ck would anyone stay loyal to a friend? I mean "Ho's before Bro's" right? Isn't that the way it goes? Or is it "Bro's before Ho's"? At this point I don't f*ing know anymore. Maybe it's just that I'm in deep sh*t cuz I don't know how private school's moral standards work. Whatever th f*ck your guy's problem is, I don't know. What I do know is that I, and the select few that I stand for, will be the one(s) that will succeed in life. As for the rest of you f*ing haole-ass motherf*ers, have fun sucking dick the rest of your lives. By the time you figure out that you all f*ed up by living your lives as stupid f*ing assholes who only know how get ahead in life by f*ing other people over, everyone will already hate you and it'll already be too late. The only reason most people don't hateyou now is because most of the people you know are exactly like you. I hate you. Not just the person who narked on me. All of you asshole narks. I hate all of you. I hate all of you, I hate my school, and I hate this piece-of-sh*t town that I live in. I just hope that whoever narked on my is happy. I love Noelle. I really do. I love her more than anything I've ever known. I litterally don't want to live if I can't have her. I've never felt this way about anyone before. I honestly want to spend the rest of my life with her. I seriously love her that much. I can't live without her, and even if I could, I wouldn't want to. There wouldn't be any point. Now that I've found someone that I really love, someone that I'm "addicted" to, someone that means more to me than anything else that I can imagin, what would be the point in living without her? I hope you have a f*ing answer because when you narked me out, you f*ed both of us over because I know she feels the same way. I hope you're f*ing happy because after you narked, her parents got a phone call saying we were "making out 'big time'" or some gay sh*t like that and now they mite make us break up. There's nof*ing way I'm going to sleep tonight, and probably the next three nights either.

Baby, I'm so sory. I feel like I pressured you. I'm almost positive that I pressured you. I'm such an asshole, huh? All I know is that even if your parents try to break us up, they'll have to move to Camodia or some gay-ass remote island or something because even a restraining order couldn't keep me away from you. I love you too much to let some b*tch-ass, backstabbing nark f*ck up what we have. I promised you we would always be together, and I won't let some little punk turn me into a liar. I love you so much and I promise you I'll never give up on 'us'. I love you too much. Tu tienes mi corazon...

Alright, it's time for a new post. That last one, as serious as I was at the time, is ridiculous. Let's talk about Sublime! One of the most influential ska bands of our time, at least for me. I've been listening to them from way back when. I don't even remember. It's been a long time, and, yes, of coarse I'm gonna refer you to a website. http://www.purevolume.com/sublime. The same websit that I always refer ya'll to. If you want to read up and do your homework on them then you'll want to check this website: http://sublimespot.com/sublime/.

Hey guys. I'm bored. It's like, 12:20, so go figure, I have nothing to do. I can't watch a movie cuz my whole family is asleep and the movie would wake them up, and listening to music only takes me so far. My girlfriend's a normal human being. She got tired and fell asleep during our texting conversation. Don't wory babe, it's all good (I'm just going to tell you that ahead of time cuz I know you're going to appologize for it when you read this. Don't feel bad. People need to sleep). The reason I can't sleep is cuz I have like, a million thoughts running through my head right now and I've been laying in my bed for a little less than 3 hours thinking about them. Most of them are about my girlfriend, some are about my dad, some are about things I'm not going to post on here, and some are about how I wish I could go to sleep already. The thing that really pisses me off is that school starts on Monday. The only reason I'm happy is because I get to see my girlfriend everyday. What I don't like is everything else. I have to put up with a bunch of people I don't like, classes I hate but most of them I can't even sleepin anymore cuz my teachers are starting to crack down on me about it, I'm actually not even allowed to put my arm around my girlfriend. If that's not gay then I don't know what is. Is putting my arm around her, IN FREAKING PUBLIC, WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE US, going to somehow lead to sex? No, it's not, so then what makes it wrong? We are under constant supervision, which I really don't mind to an extent. There is no way we are going to have sex, and even if we did, it's between us, and, should our parents find out, between our parents. The school should be just that: a school. They have no right to interfere with our lives outside of the school. I was suspended for rumors and an old post on my myspace, which has now been deleted thanx to that whole thing. I am seriously sick of restrictions. I thought my parents were strict. I thought my girlfriend's parents were strict, but my school is ridiculous. I never thought I'd ever say this, but I got yelled at for having my arm around my girlfriend at lunch, and they called my mom, who thought it was the most retarded thing in the world. She came up to me and was like "Your school is ridiculous". I'm honestly at a loss. I just can't wait to graduate. Whatever. It's like, a year 1/2 away. I'll make it.

Last nite was the best nite of my Christmas Break, all because I got to see her for the first time in a whole week. I finally got to hold her in my arms again and could tell her I love her face to face. At that point, I felt like I was on top of the world. Baby, you make me feel like this all the time, but last nite I felt like I could have moved the stars...and if I could, I'd paint a picture of you with them. I love you so much, and I'd do anything for you, absolutly anything. I could never explain to you how much you mean to me because words aren't enough, I can only show you. I love you.

Baby, you are more than enough for me, but I can never seem to get enough of you. I've never felt this way about anyone before. You are the love of my life, and I wish we could spend every waking moment together. Ask anyone who knows me and they'll tell you that I never say stuff like this, but I've let my guard down for you baby. I trust you...and my trust isn't gained easily, actually, it's really hard to get...but somehow you found a way to get it with hardly any effort at all. I love you so much. All of me is yours.

Football Team Campout

I'm the guy facing away from the camara, in the skinny jeans and black shirt. That's my best friend in the black shorts and white shirt. The fat guy's one of my buddies. We were running around all freaking night. We didn't sleep at all. We were just pulling pranks and stuff all night. It was a blast.

DEFTONES

This my absolute favorite band of all time. I've

been a fan since the 5th grade. Their singer,

Chino, is freakin' amazing. I'm not sure what it is

exactly that I enjoy so much about them. Maybe

it's that heavy but soft sound or their bomb vocal styles, or maybe it's just their kick-ass lyrics. Whatever it is, I like it. If you get

a chance, look them up at http://www.purevolume.com/deftones. Check out the songs Be Quiet And Drive, My Own Summer, and Root. Those are my favorites

As horrible as the fire storm was, it made the beaches look amazing. This is Oceansine the first day of the fires. Pretty cool, huh?

Chad Bartie, frontside crailslide

Vanna

Alright, so I was just chillin lookin up bands and stuff, and I come across this band, Vanna. Their amazing. I seriously am hooked. There's one song in particular that I love by them, A Dead Language for a Dying Lady. Check it out (if anyone even reads this)

Woa

Dude, okay, out of all the crap I do, skate, surf, mx, etc. I've never felt anything like what I feel when I'm my girl, Noelle. I've had a lot of girlfriends, and I've even B.S.'d myself into thinking that I was in love before. I was wrong. I've never felt this way before, and I'm deep in love with you baby, and I promise I'll never fall out.